Where did you come from? Where did you go?


Sometimes I wonder how I come up with this stuff! Laughing in my head to the “Cotton-Eyed Joe” title takes me back to a different time in my life. It was a time of freedom, laughter and a few moments I might like to forget.
Do you ever look back at your life and wonder where that carefree person is? I know I have. Then I wonder… How do I find her again? I am a podcast listener. I find new books to read, inspiration and occasionally get sidetracked with a shopping spree of some new company I learned about. One morning not long ago, I heard Chrystal Evans Hurst on a podcast, talking about her new book “She’s Still There“.  The title instantly caught my attention and by the end of the podcast, I was in my car yelling “YES, I FEEL YA GIRL!”

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It wasn’t long before listening to this podcast that I had shared with a friend that I needed and wanted to take my life back. The problem was, I had no idea how to do that. Some of you might understand this feeling, waking up, looking in the mirror and wondering; when did I forget about me. How much time had passed and when did I become someone’s wife, mom, and caregiver to everyone but me! It seems selfish. In reality, it is honest. I love being a wife and mom to my people, but I miss those moments of exercising when it’s convenient for me, having time to read a book or practice a hobby, to just go sit quietly for a moment or go have dinner with a friend without feeling the guilt of taking care of someone else’s needs.

Have you ever just held a book and felt relief? While waiting for my book to come via Amazon (of course), I had discovered Chrystal’s podcast where she was telling her “She’s still there” story along with others sharing their stories. I learned I was not alone in standing in my own way and stuck in the middle of my own road afraid to make changes for fear of “what will people think”. While every woman’s story is different, she refers to it like AA in some aspects. The first step is the hardest; Chrystal writes “Hello. My name is Chrystal and I am a girl who has struggled with insecurity, battled promiscuity, experienced pregnancy outside of marriage, fought the fat demon regularly and wrestled with a sense of shame and insignificance because of it all.”

It takes courage to admit all of those things about yourself. I find her story fascinating and feel relief in her honesty. What is your story? Do you find yourself in the middle of your own road? None of us mean to end up in a job we hate for years, in broken relationships, out of shape and overweight, in financial hardship or receiving an unexpected call from a doctor or family member with illness striking you to the core. The good news is … This is YOUR life; YOU are going to be ok. Can I encourage you, just as Chrystal encouraged me through her book and podcasts, to take the first step: BE BRAVE, BE HONEST and TELL the TRUTH to YOU! Whatever you have been through, YOU are on the other side of it and guess what? YOU’RE STILL HERE!

The girl you want to be is depending on YOU, dig deep and grab her hand. “SHE”S STILL THERE” Rescue her!

Until next time,
Michele Lawrence